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Apr. 16th, 2011

What are words.

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

What are words - Chris Medina


So today was very eventful. Was in school from 7 and didn't get home until 10pm. D: haha. JC life is like that. Anyway, right after school the SLC exco went to St. Hilda's for our project. It was a little quiet at first, but it all turned out well and the elderly really had fun!! (: Hahah it made me really happy. I don't know why, I was so involved in the game because their excitement infected me. I mean, they're so lonely so they come to the centre to play games for like a few hours and they have fun. But then after the games are over, they go home and they're lonely again until their children come back at 9, 10pm. Imagine how that feels. I'm just glad that they had fun in those few short hours of games, and of course, this really motivates me to think of what more can I do? 

Triple E today was okay, next week no Triple E. I'm sorta of like. -in a mildly loud voice- YAYYYYYY. because i really need a break from triple E. Hahaha. Tiring sia. But today my kid opened up to me, and asked more questions. And she finished her homework and persevered throughout the worksheet. I don't know if its me who changed her, because I often talk crap about my life to her, motivate her, but anyway she's opening up. So today i gave her exceptional conduct. Hope she will be motivated to continue asking me questions. (: 

Overall, today's a really good day. Although tiring to shuffle from place to place, i'm just really happy i get to meet people and hopefully make some sort of a difference. Idk la, it just makes me feel very contented. (:

Alright. Happy Birthday Christine!!! (: 

I have this mountain of tutorials, but I'm going to sleep now. Cannot tahan leh how someone teach me how to keep awake for long hours. :X

Apr. 8th, 2011

Green and Blue

我可以配你去看星星
不用再多說名,我只要和你在一起
我不想 有再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗,是因為你。(:


Helloo (:

So this week was quite hectic but eventful at the same time. The whole week was so tiring, my whole CG was getting from day to day like zombies. Only on Fridays we get better and sort of lighten up. (: Which is good. Anyway, this week, on Thursday, I made my EXCO speech to the whole SLC and the teachers. I wasn't nervous but i dont think I did exceptionally well because my reading is really boring and monotone hahaha. Although I have to thank Madhu for teaching me how to catch my audience. (: So yeah after the speech, just that night, I got into SLC EXCO. ((: So yup, I'm with 12 other people but all of us don't know our positions yet. After today's recce trip to St. Hilda's, we're supposed to come up with a proposal to send to the teachers on Sunday night. Then from there we carry out our next session on Friday. Those that display exceptional leadership will get elected as chairperson and vice chairperson. I'm running for chairperson, but competition is reallyyyy intense. 

Since everyone already knows they're in EXCO, they know they at least will get PM. So i think even though some wrote PM on their nomination form, they wanna have a shot at chairperson. So its like taking the cream out of the cream of the crop. Everyone's really trying to get up there. Its like as if all 13 of us were drowning in the ocean, and to get above water, you have to be the strongest swimmer. then those who aren't as strong will push others down to get to the surface. And naturally, those that can't get air will die off after awhile. Its a process that is really suffocating but over these 3 days I'll try my best to swim above water, without pushing other people down. I can see that M is really trying really very hard. the fact that she's naturally more out going than me makes it look like as if she's already the chairperson. I'm trying but its difficult for me to out-talk her since 1000 words come out of her mouth per minute. -.- I just hope that teachers can get a look at my planning because there's where I know I can out do her. Please i really want this, I don't want to have gone through all that mental struggling for nothing ):

Jumping topic, today on the MRT I saw this group of sec 2s get on at Bedok. Then their large group was beside my large group of Meridians. At the same place. Then we were hell noisy. People on the MRT sushed the TKGians. So for about 5 seconds the MRT was quiet. ... Then noisy again. Hahahaha. Awesome, i love how all batches of TKGians are the same. Noisy yet eloquent when needed. Demure less than half the time, but resolute nonetheless. <3

Mar. 26th, 2011

Summer Rain

On the rooftop thinkin’ it’s about to pour
People run for shelter, tryin’ to get out that storm
But I got you with me, the sun behind me
So what are we leavin’ for? Let’s stay. Let’s get carried away
Your eyes are beggin’ me to touch you there
Could be a thousand people watchin’ but we don’t care

But look at you tonight, so beautiful under these neon lights, yeah
Who needs lovers’ lane? Right up on this rooftop, let’s make love in the summer rain

Nothin’ better than givin’ this all to you
And the weather’s only adding to the mood
See the wind’s blowin’, fire’s growin’, both of us soakin’ wet
But let’s stay, yeah. Let’s get carried away
Your eyes are beggin’ me to touch you there
Could be a thousand people watchin’ but we don’t care

But look at you tonight, so beautiful under these neon lights, yeah
Who needs lovers’ lane? Right up on this rooftop, let’s make love in the summer rain

There’s no place that I’d rather make love to you
Right here on this roof, yeah
Look at you tonight, so beautiful under these neon lights, yeah
Who needs lovers’ lane? Right up on this rooftop, let’s make love in the summer rain
Look at you tonight, so beautiful under these neon lights, yeah
Who needs lovers’ lane? Right up on this rooftop, let’s make love in the summer rain

Matthew Morrison – Summer Rain Lyrics

This song was stuck in my head during the whole GP period a few days ago. Hahah. 

School's fine but I've been busy so I haven't been updating much. Anyway nobody reads heheh. Still, I like this outlet. Time to do PW. Risk or Conflict? Haha why both so hard. -.-

Mar. 13th, 2011

Dreams

 I've been wanting to blog for a very long time, but always can't seem to spare time to start typing and all. ): Anyway, on Friday I went to see teacher Emen in his shop. Apparently, his shop is closing down cos the owner decided to leave for Australia, taking everything with her. So, which means, this left him jobless, shocked and just very disappointed. ): I don't think my dropping by so suddenly could have made him feel better or anything, but at least I was there to hear him speak about his feelings and what he learnt. 

To me, it felt very weird when a grown man just started telling me how naive he was. I mean, I thought adults are supposed to know everything, make sound decisions, yknow, get into less trouble as teenagers do. But there he was, telling me he was very naive to have trusted them. I know how much he slogged for that shop. In the end, like he said, they cheated him of his talents and so called "used" him. This may be just one part of the story, but nevertheless, I choose to believe him and what he says. He told me that he used to stay in the shop until 3am sewing bears for the exhibition coming up. He told me that he hasn't seen the world outside his shop; he told me that only recently when his friend brought him out in a car, he saw how stunning the Marina Bay Sands hotel is, the architecture. He conveyed to me his joy in working so hard, doing what he loves. Even though its tiring, I know he enjoys what he's doing. But now, there's no clear direction ahead. i asked him what he's gonna do. He said he still doesn't know. It sort of makes me feel sad and want to help, but I can't do anything, I'm just 16 years old. 

Makes me wonder if one day, this will happen to me. So he was telling me not to trust anyone wholeheartedly. I mean, not be suspicious of everyone, but always be vigilant. You don't deserved to me made used of. People don't have the right to make use of other people, nor do they deserve to be used. People only use things. 

Then he said a quote. -Checks phone for quote- 
"To me, I think the most important thing is to have a dream. Its not success, its not money, but a dream. Once you have a dream, you have direction and you know where you want to end up. So it will allow you to go down the right path."
Not sure if those were the exact words, but it was something along that line. He asked me what I wanted to do in the future. I told him probably architecture, then i went on and on on how I have this idea of fusing old with new. Eg. If I design a hotel, I'd probably design one which has an old style peranakan design, but on the inside, this heritage and antiquity becomes a fusion with the modern and recent. Then we shared some of our views etc. Its nice talking to someone of the same art wavelength HAHA. Yup. Then the dream thing. I thought that in real life, we don't need dreams. Just need a decision on what you want to do. It's not necessarily a dream, but perhaps a direction. Dreams sound more like something unrealistic, something that you might just decide on for a while, then change after awhile. I wouldn't say architecture is my dream, because its not like as if I wanted it since young. I would say art is my dream. Then it all made sense. I had a dream, and architecture was probably the direction. Then if one day I get influenced by other people or decide to abandon my decision, my dream of doing art will keep me back on track. Continue doing something related to art, no matter what. (:

Mar. 10th, 2011

Uncharted

No words, My tears won't make any room for more,
And it don't hurt, like anything I've ever felt before, this is
No broken heart,
No familiar scars,
This territory goes uncharted...

Just me, in a room sunk down in a house in a town, and I
Don't breathe, no I never meant to let it get away from me
Now, too much to hold, everybody wants has to get their hands on gold,
And I want uncharted.
Stuck under this ceiling I made, I can't help but feeling...

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, of foolproof ideas, so don't ask me how
To get started, it's all uncharted...

La la la-a-a-a.
Oh-h-h.

Each day, countin' up the minutes, till I get alone, 'cause I can't stay
In the middle of it all, it's nobody's fault, but I'm
So alone, Never knew how much I didn't know,
Oh, everything is uncharted.
I know I'm getting nowhere, when I only sit and stare like...

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, of foolproof ideas, so don't ask me how
To get started, it's all uncharted.

Jump start my kaleidoscope heart,
Love to watch the colors fade,
They may not make sense,
But they sure as hell made me.

I won't go as a passenger, no
Waiting for the road to be laid
Though I may be going down,
I'm taking flame over burning out

Compare, where you are to where you want to be, and you'll get nowhere

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, foolproof ideas, so don't ask me how
To get started,
Oh-h
I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out, foolproof ideas, so don't ask me how
To get started, it's all uncharted...
La la la-a-a-a.

Feb. 20th, 2011

Now I realize.

"Before a Bird can start flying and soaring up in the sky, they must somehow drop to the bottom. Only then will they realise the true spirit of CALLISTO that will empower them to get up again. And when we fly, we will never aim for the sky, cos there are already footsteps on the moon."
-Callisto 8th House Captain Fadzli!


When i was still in TK and Kahmin was in TJ, she always told me "when you come to JC, you will know. You'll be so busy. So now I don't even have the time to talk to you on msn. SMS maybe can but i'm really busy. When you reach JC, you will understand." Back then I was quite annoyed. Because I thought that the problem was with her time management. Hahah! My idea was that in TK I'm already so busy, but I could still handle it. What will JC be?! But yeah now that I'm really here and in her shoes, I realized that whatever she's been telling me for the past 4 years has all been true. It's like as if she was my fortune teller. Whatever she has said is coming true. Esp the no time thing. Every time I want to talk to Eli, I realize that I can't afford the time and hence I break so any promises. I feel really horrible, and the words in Kahmin's letters just appear in my head. I'm really trying to juggle it all, but sometimes there's so many things I need to do until I can't keep track of it all. Sorry Eli, when you get to JC, you will understand. 

So yeah. I already took up a leadership role in MJ. Before that, when transitioning from TK to MJ, it was like. I had everything, and then suddenly I had nothing. Its like falling off a ladder from the highest step. It hurts, but what can you do. Climb it again I guess. So I'm at the first step now, by taking on the role of CG rep. Its like class chairman sort of thing. I was actually quite apprehensive during the voting because I wasn't really high profile from the start. But in my mini speech I said everything that came from my heart and yeah I got voted in. I'm really happy cos I like 11S208. But of course, this class can never beat 4E7'10. No matter how hard I try to bond them together, it's just not the same. However I won't give up, i'll try to make 208 a legacy in MJ. 

About leadership. I never felt so lost as I did a few weeks ago. JC leadership sort of sums up all the skills I've learnt in the past 4 years. Trying to apply them to a situation where I'm really on my own, is something I'm not really familiar with. In TK I had the loveliest PB to support me. I mean, now I still have Chris and Char, but I've got to learn to stop depending on others, because others are depending on me now. The tables have turned and now its sort of like a test to myself, to see whether I can lead. A few weeks ago I really doubted what I did in the past 4 years. Whether it was all thrown to me and I was just spoon fed. In MJ, I had to fight for my own roles. I had a goal, to become CG rep but I wasn't immediately given the role, like how I was easily turned into a POP/Vice chairman/Prefect/Prefect EXCO. This is definitely much harder and I know that the road ahead is gonna be worse. Especially if I screw up, people will be watching, scrutinizing me. Definitely much more pressure.

Feb. 8th, 2011

(no subject)

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no fighting,
Somewhere in the world tonight someone's falling in love for the first time,
I believe there is a place where fear is finally waving goodbye,
Somewhere in the world tonight every thing's alright.

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no crying,
And somewhere in the world tonight someone's holding their first child,
I believe there is a place where the truth can finally wash out all the lies,
Somewhere in the world tonight every things alright.

So take me their, Oh Yeah,
Can you take me there? Woah

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no indifference,
Somewhere in the world tonight everyone has a voice ; the sweetest voice,
I believe there is a place where rich and poor can walk side by side,
Somewhere in the world tonight every things alright.

So take me there / Take me there (x2)
Take me there woah,

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no hiding, No,
And somewhere in the world tonight someone's leading the way,

Take me there / Take me there (x2)
Take me there.. Take me there,
Take me there / take me there (x2)
Take me there,
Somewhere in the world tonight every things alright.

Altiyan Childs

If only this really happens. Take me there! 

I'm falling sick again, with fever and cough and sore throat. What's wrong with my immunity hahah lol. We had curry party at Big E's today. It was fun but now idk whether I have a funny stomach. I think I'll stay away from curry for quite a long time now. Today really curry overload already haha. :/

(Lol this was sunday's post. forgot to post.)

Feb. 6th, 2011

Somewhere in the world tonight.

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no fighting,
Somewhere in the world tonight someone's falling in love for the first time,
I believe there is a place where fear is finally waving goodbye,
Somewhere in the world tonight every thing's alright.

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no crying,
And somewhere in the world tonight someone's holding their first child,
I believe there is a place where the truth can finally wash out all the lies,
Somewhere in the world tonight every things alright.

So take me their, Oh Yeah,
Can you take me there? Woah

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no indifference,
Somewhere in the world tonight everyone has a voice ; the sweetest voice,
I believe there is a place where rich and poor can walk side by side,
Somewhere in the world tonight every things alright.

So take me there / Take me there (x2)
Take me there woah,

Somewhere in the world tonight there's no hiding, No,
And somewhere in the world tonight someone's leading the way,

Take me there / Take me there (x2)
Take me there.. Take me there,
Take me there / take me there (x2)
Take me there,
Somewhere in the world tonight every things alright.

Altiyan Childs


If only this really happens. Take me there! 

I'm falling sick again, with fever and cough and sore throat. What's wrong with my immunity hahah lol. We had curry party at Big E's today. It was fun but now idk whether I have a funny stomach. I think I'll stay away from curry for quite a long time now. Today really curry overload already haha. :/

Feb. 1st, 2011

Soar. (:

 
HELLO TRACY! (: 

Hahaha i didnt know you read my blog so this post is for you! (:

Thanks for being my faithful reader. Like. Actually the number of faithful readers I have can count with one hand. -.- So yeah I appreciate it a lot my BNF! (: yeah yeah tell me how's life and all k! catch up. 

Anw im so tired now i can barely keep awake. tomorrow's gonna be a massive water fight between the whole school. AWESOME hahaha cant wait. 

Jan. 31st, 2011

Callisto. Splendor. Sine. Ocassu.

"What's up Callisto?
Yo what's up! 
What's up Callisto?
Yo what's up!

Who are we?
Callisto!
Who are they?
We don't know!
Who are we?
Callisto!
Who are theyyy?
Hmmmmmmmm. WE DON'T KNOW!!"


Heheh today was awesome i just became so self-high and all. I'm in OG C3, which is Callisto three. Quite cool cos i didn't think I'll end up in blue house haha! I miss Triton though! More enthu over there. Hmm. Anyway, my CG has 22 people, I think equal number of boys and girls. The games today were pretty fun but we were half asleep so not that participative. Lol I hope tomorrow will be better. (:

The couple dance this morning was epic. They made the guys and girls line up in separate lines then anyhow pair. I paired up with Shawn from VS.

Me: Zhen! Who you dance with?
Zhen: Idk. Some Catholic guy. (From Hai Sing Catholic.) What about you?
Me: HAHAHA. Oh. Some Victorian guy.

LOL some catholic guy HAHAH. It was fun la the mass dances and all. ((: 

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